Saturday, February 4, 2017

~Evie Lou Day~

Today was super exciting if you don't count the 7 hours of driving:)
We welcomed our Evie Lou home today...
She is 8 weeks old and oh so precious!
We originally told the girls that we were getting her in March so when we were told an earlier date we decided not to tell the girls and surprise them:)

Evie was very timid when I met her, like a lump haha
my goodness she is so sweet and cute!

the girls were very surprised to say the least!!
Evie never saw that coming haha

and yes the girls have pj's on during the middle of the day #dadwasincharge

Julianne came over to meet the newest addition....she is getting her own puppy in 2 weeks
also a goldendoodle!

her eyes!!!!

Goldbug checking her sister out!!

this pic scares me a bit....those paws are huge!!!
it was such a special day with a few over excited moments;)

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

~You Know You Are A Good Mom When.....~ are cleaning the trash out of your car and find this...

Madeline filled this out at church for her brother
when I asked her about it she broke into the biggest smile hahaha
brothers and sisters!!
the email was her favorite...when she said it I realized she did not know how to spell diarrhea
one of my best memories ever!!!
and the wife's name...Welma hahaha
we are all thankful she did not turn it in!!!

Saturday, January 28, 2017

~The Unexpected~

I write a lot on this old blog about my experiences in adoption...
the awesome and the ugly
the expected and the unexpected. 

Hank had a conversation with Madeline the other day about her birth family..
as I've written before Madeline has a difficult time processing her loss
she feels and hurts deeply and is fiercly loyal to those she loves
Because of a few things she has said He felt promted to ask her this,
"Do  you think your China parents are looking for you?" She looked straight in his eyes and said "yes"

My heart stills as I think of this saddness in her heart and beliefs she has about her past,
 heartbreaking in reality
He sat her down and gently told her that he could never have taken her away from a family that was searching for her. We may never know why her mom had to give her up but she wouldnt't have done so unless she had to. She may have been sick or for some other reason she knew she couldn't give you the life she wanted for you. She made the decision to give you the best chance to have a loving family. Lastly he said that she got what she wanted for you, a big old loving family that is part crazy. 

We can only tell her what we were shown to be fact. That her parents wanted better for her and we have no idea of their circumstances, but they chose life for her and wanted the best they were able to give, unfortunutly that was giving her up. That statement alone is heartbreaking to the core.
We have a copy of a note that was left with her stating her birthdate and "we hope you go to a kindhearted family."

Janie has been asking more questions lately as well (most likely due to her sister talking about it all the time)
Something came up this morning about China so I decided to ask Janie the same question,
"Do  you believe your China parents are looking for you?" She did not know about Madeline and Hank's conversation.
Without hesitation she nodded her head....sigh
I assured her that her family chose life for her as well, she was very sick and they wanted her to live and did what they had to do to save her. Her story is a bit more tricky so we keep the details to a minimum. 
I am mentally unprepared that each of these precious girls hold this belief in their hearts
possibly from imagination, hope, saddness, loss????
I share this because in my wildest dreams I did not see this coming..
the thoughts and feelings going around in their little hearts and minds are real

Their loss is enormous
yet it gets lost in their day to day happiness...lurking just outside

I hugged my girls close this morning and promised that God loves them and made them perfectly
assured them that they are beautiful and worthy of love
they will never be forgotten or forsaken. 

I wish that none of us had to experience great loss and suffering but not one of us can be perfected in Chirst if we don't experience these things in life. Unfortunatly my girls lives started out in suffering....with all my heart I believe God will use any and all suffering for good to glorify himself and to bring us closer to him.

Romans 8:18
"I consider that our present sufferings will not compare to the glory that will be revealed in us"
This is my prayer for my girls, that God will use their suffering for good...

Matthew 5:4
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted"
Romans 15:13
"May the God of hope fill you with joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you will overflow with hope by the power of  the Holy Spirit."

and that they will be comforted by him and have peace in their circumstances.

As adoptive parents we need to understand that these struggles are very real for our children. Thankfully God can equip each one of us to handle the situations as they arise. I'm sure our answers are not perfect but I trust that my Lord can override all our inadequacies.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Chef Madeline

Madeline has become very interested in cooking over the past 2 years
she decided she wanted to make her own birthday cake this year so that is just what we did!
Rainbow cake was her choice
so of course I googled "rainbow cake" and found an awesome recipe

cooking selfie:)

six layers...she was very specific about her colors

it turned out beautiful and the icing was to die for, she did such a great job!!

precious girl!

Sunday, January 22, 2017

~Happy 10th Birthday Madeline~

10 years old

I know we all say we can't believe it but it happened!
Madeline is officially 10....yikes!!

this is one of the very first pictures I saw of her...
even then I could tell she was contemplating much, just look at those eyes taking it all in
the uncertain set of her eyes
bless her sweet little heart...
all of our adopted little ones have a special story all their own
...they each process differently...

Madeline is such a special girl, all 10 years of her!!
goodness she is special

~she loves~
hunting with daddy
her family
social studies
hanging with dad in the yard
making things out of the most unordinary
her friends
stuffed animals
hanging with dad at the barn
her blanket
collecting anything
hunting with daddy
oh lets not forget her chickens, she knows each and every one by name
did I say anything glittery?
hunting with daddy:)
oh and Mommy and Janie:)

Happy 10th birthday my special girl
we love and adore you!!

Friday, January 20, 2017

~My Goodness~

She is so very cute

little Evie at 6 weeks
only 2 weeks til we meet:)

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

~Aunt Mary Mayne~

My mother's older sister passed away last week
growing up our families spent a lot of time together
our grandparents had 11 grandchildren from their  3 daughters...
needless to say our grandparents house was the happening place on the weekends:)

My memories of my mother and her sisters are laughter...lots and lots and loud haha
Aunt Mary Mayne had a deep loud laugh, such a beautiful lady

Aunt Mary Mayne and Uncle Tommy
you can't tell from this picture but she had gorgeous red hair...her trademark:)

Hank and I traveled to Knoxville on Sunday to attend her funeral
(all by ourselves, glorious)
It is sad that it takes a funeral to bring loved ones together but that is exactly what happened
It has been 20 years since all 11 cousins have been together!!

here we are in all our glory lined up oldest to youngest:)

my brother and sisters....lined up youngest to oldest!

my Aunt's service was held in our church we attended during our early elementary years
this stained glass was given in honor of my grandparents

meanwhile back at home the girls were taken to the zoo by the best babysitter around, sweet Caitlin!

and then over in Auburn John David was swimming in a I was checking my app during the mornings and evening for his races:)

My sweet Aunt is resting in glory with Christ now and for that I am thankful
I am thankful for wonderful memories of her and time catching up with all my siblings and cousins. 
A blessed time for sure!